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My ID - 5-4-07 - fangirl
by ~tulzdavampslayer
FreeSo I suppose when you told me you loved me,  You were too high to mean it. (every single time)  And I guess when she told me she understood,  She was too drunk to remember.   
I’m tired of hearing your excuses,  I’m tired of getting hurt,  I’m tired of all this false hope  Clouding my judgement.   
Now I’m free… to say just how I feel  I’m free… to make decisions  About me… and you can’t change me  Not me… No not me… not me…   
So I suppose when you told her you loved her,  You really meant it. (every single time)  And I guess when she told you the same back, Free
by ~tulzdavampslayer
Now Look at usYou asked me once if I hated you.  You wouldn’t give up on it.  I told you I didn’t, I said I was disappointed.  I never told you I was even more disappointed in myself.   
We were going to be heroes one day.  Now look at us.   
You brought me flowers once.  You said it was an accident.  I thanked you anyway, and I laughed.  I should have hugged you.   
We were going to be friends forever.  Now look at us.   
You told me you loved me more than once.  You only ever said it if you were drunk or high or worse.  I told you each time I didn’t believe you. &nb Now Look at us
by ~tulzdavampslayer
WordsThere don't seem to be enough words.  Have you ever noticed that?  It's so hard.  It's so hard just to say one little thing.  Or maybe not so little.   
We're always struggling  to fit things into little boxes,  one-word definitions  that are too small for the idea  that we need them for.   
Love.  What kind of love?  How strong is it?  How long will it last?  One word isn't enough.   
Pain.  Heart-wrenching, gut-twisting pain?  A stab through your chest?  Betrayal too deep to describe?  How can one word be enough?   
Friend Words
by ~tulzdavampslayer
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Red Phantom

Not here. Really.

Sat May 31, 2008, 7:39 PM
  • Mood: Lonely
  • Listening to: A lot of angsty shit
  • Reading: too many books. going mad.
  • Watching: my life fall apart again. whoo.
  • Playing: Baldur's Gate II / Neverwinter Nights II
  • Eating: as little as possible
  • Drinking: anything sugary
so yeah. been over a year. I don't suck at all.

I finally started to come out of my shell this year, and I started to, I don't know, act human. I recognised emotions in myself that I hadn't quite been able to understand, and I've started to realise I have some serious problems that I need to work through.

The working through bit's causing me some issues, but I'm getting there.

Thanks to a fantastic creative writing class and an amazing group of people, I've managed to do a little bit of writing. I'll post as soon as all the assessment's been marked so they don't think I stole from myself. heh.

My camera stopped working forever ago, and I can't be bothered transferring all the photos on my camera onto a computer to play with, and my art's turned into a big pile of shit so yeah. not much to report.

I'm still incredibly lonely. Possibly worse than before. Now it's mind-numbing, soul-crushing, and I can barely breathe.

huh. stop that. unhealthy.

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Devious Info

  • Current Residence: with my family
  • Interests: too many to list so I shan't
  • Favourite movie: that one, with that guy. there's a complication. but it works out.
  • Favourite band or musician: Bob Dylan
  • Favourite genre of music: music that sounds good. I'll listen to just about anything
  • Operating System: *sigh* I want my Macbook Pro now, not in 6 months, dammit...
  • MP3 player of choice: Ipod
  • Shell of choice: can you hear the sea?
  • Wallpaper of choice: hmm... flowers would be nice...
  • Skin of choice: ...please don't remove my skin. That would hurt.
  • Favourite game: Final Fantasy series / Baldur's Gate II
  • Favourite gaming platform: Playstation
  • Personal Quote: "Nobody can be exactly like me. Even I have trouble doing it!" - Tallulah Bankhead

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~-elly- May 16, 2007, 6:12:02 PM
Dude. Sup.

SERIOUSLY
let's do a musical day/night or something.

-moulin rouge
-chicago
-hair
-jesus christ superstar (IF you haven't seen it, which you probably have.. it's awesome..)
-phantom of the opera? (tis a bit long?)
-uh... Grease? loll.
-The Producers
Anyways. lets me know what you got and whatnot or what you want to watch.. these mere thoughts..

I'm out. Woop.

--
-Elly- was Here.
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~tulzdavampslayer May 29, 2007, 2:15:55 AM
something has to happen.

soon.

I had one of my crazy days today. Spent the whole day sort of staring into nothingness.

I just was reminded of all the shitty things in my life that haven't worked out, and got a little glimpse of what I could have if I had tried harder a long long time ago, possibly also in a galaxy far away.

ouch. wrist hurting too.

I'm incredibly poor.

Do you want to do a movie night next week? or this weekend?

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If you say you're right, then you must be right. But I still refuse to believe in you.

What's that you say? You know my faults? You have the cure?

(You are the poison)
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~-elly- Mar 30, 2007, 7:17:22 AM
Yo, thanks for the fave on [link]
"Truly sicker Than I". Much appreciated.

Let's HANG soon.

--
-Elly- was Here.
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~tulzdavampslayer Apr 5, 2007, 2:17:39 AM
HANGing is good. in fact necessary.

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If you say you're right, then you must be right. But I still refuse to believe in you.

What's that you say? You know my faults? You have the cure?

(You are the poison)
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`Elandria Mar 22, 2007, 10:53:49 AM
Heya! Thanks for the fave on
.::F R O Z E N::.
:smooch:

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Would you like some cheese to go with that whine Madam?
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~rebelsketcher Mar 19, 2007, 4:35:44 AM
thanks for the :+fav:!

darth should be using his light sabre...but even villains need a day off...

--
Stand up for yourself. Never be ashamed of who you are. Chase your dreams. Take to the streets and keep the peace.

Word.
:icontulzdavampslayer:
~tulzdavampslayer Mar 25, 2007, 4:30:12 AM
you know now I'm thinking about Sylar, don't you...

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If you say you're right, then you must be right. But I still refuse to believe in you.

What's that you say? You know my faults? You have the cure?

(You are the poison)
:iconrebelsketcher:
~rebelsketcher Mar 25, 2007, 6:49:26 AM
Grrr...

*radiates and boils cup of tea*

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Stand up for yourself. Never be ashamed of who you are. Chase your dreams. Take to the streets and keep the peace.

Word.
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~tulzdavampslayer Mar 27, 2007, 2:58:37 PM
*eats your brain*

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If you say you're right, then you must be right. But I still refuse to believe in you.

What's that you say? You know my faults? You have the cure?

(You are the poison)
:iconrebelsketcher:
~rebelsketcher Mar 27, 2007, 3:08:39 PM
*ow*

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Stand up for yourself. Never be ashamed of who you are. Chase your dreams. Take to the streets and keep the peace.

Word.
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